Before I head off into Pokemon Hibernation

My first year of University has just come to an end, and to be honest I don't feel happy as I want to be. Here's this 'nice' long three month break ahead of me, but to me it just feels like a huge abyss that I'm about to drop right into.

I'm almost dreading this nice long holiday. 

Well I'm the type of guy that can't take a break without earning it by working hard. And honestly, I haven't worked hard enough at Uni this year to deserve such a long break.

I almost want to hop right back into Uni, not because I like the stress from assignments/exams, but because the absence of them leaves a void in my life; one that I feel is worse than the struggles of studying.

Cathedrals

So one of my favourite bands, Tenth Avenue North, dropped a new record today and no, this post is not about that.

But nonetheless, I do think you should check it out, it's called "Cathedrals".

The main idea of the album that really caught my attention was the fact that we were "not meant to be alone", we need to be in a community. And as I look back in this year, I have longed for such a thing, but never really got it.

So I guess this is gonna turn into a rant about how anti-social I've become.
Here goes.

A New Direction

I'm about to write this with no direction or inspiration whatsoever.
I just want to write.

Well it seems appropriate to address the past and future of this blog as I feel what I wrote in the past was due to a conviction I no longer have.

One truth I can say about all the past posts was they were somewhat "censored".
I was never completely honest.

Final Testament Part I: The Seed

Prologue:

As I prepare to write this, I find myself reading through my older posts, trying to find a way to start this off. I realise I was once so convicted to this one thing, so inspired.

I am sad to say that that's the past now.
All those thoughts, those ideas, those lessons learnt may have shaped me into who I am today, but I have decided to leave all those behind to embrace a new perspective.

It has definitely been a good run.
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One night, sometime towards the end of last year not long before my 18th birthday, I was thinking critically about random things like I quite often find myself doing late at night.

There was this one thought that struck me and kept me pondering late at night for many nights to come.

"Would I ever be allowed not to go to church?"

Final Testament Part II: Revolution

In the beginning was a perfect world.
Everything was in a state of bliss.

Then suddenly, it seemed all too good to be true.

We screwed things up by rebelling.
Everything came crashing down.
Sin came into the world along with pain and suffering.

It was all because God gave us a choice.

Final Testament Part III: Living a Lie

I am sorry.
I didn't come out about this earlier.

I'm sure I will have hurt many of you.
I have lied, I have let you down, I have deceived.
No apology can make up for it.

But I am deeply sorry.

I was arrogant.
I didn't know how to stop until it was too late.

Final Testament Part IV: A New Age

All chains will be broken.
The monster will be unleashed.

It may wreak havoc.
It may bring itself to ruins.
Or it just may...
just may,

just may show that it can become something beautiful.