The One Downfall

So I was having a nice start to refreshing week.

I was completely freed from my first job last Friday, which I have to say was extremely stressful but also an amazing experience. On top of that, I also had one of the best weekends I've had in a long time, spending time with really good friends, watching an amazing movie (Silver Linings Playbook) being able to attend and lead worship, I was so grateful for everything & was in high in spirits for the coming week.

When Everything Falls Apart

It falls, apart, from the very start, it falls apart, 

seems like everything I touch, falls apart, 

everything around me, falls apart, 

when i walk away from you~

Throughout this past week, I have experienced everything around me falling apart.

It seemed to just all happen at once, as if a wall suddenly crumbling.

It all happened because I allowed the absence of one important thing in my life.

The Apple of the Eye

There are many things of this world that make us stumble & once again fall short of His glory~

Most of the time, these certain things are actually not bad things at all.

And the other times, they're bad things that are cloaked to look good.

Two Weeks Too Late

Well for nearly everyone out there, two weeks ago was New Years - January 1st.
It was the end of another year, & the start of another.
For most, it meant time for a change, a resolution.
That was two weeks ago.

Pleasure of Sinning

We have many pleasures everyday.

Having a good night's sleep, a delicious breakfast, an effective workout, spending time with friends, learning lots of new things, these are a few of the many ways we fill our lives with pleasure.

God is Good, 'nuff said.

Every word we could ever come up with to describe God's greatness will always be such an indefinite understatement to how great He really is~

Good is a very vague word.
It was one of the words my teacher in intermediate 'banned' from our writing. She would make us think of other words in place of good. Amazing, wonderful, awesome, fabulous and the list can go on. But you've got the idea.

Spirit is Willing, Body is Weak

"Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak." - Matthew 26:41

There are many mistakes in my life i have continuously committed over and over again. I would really like to share with you some little things I have learnt so that you may hopefully not stumble like me.

Lately, I've had the urge of committing those same mistakes, but a stronger urge, has kept me from doing so. This urge is undoubtedly the Holy Spirit & I truly thank God for the strength to overcome my own flesh.

Throughout these trails, I've had so many strong desires to make good use of my life. Such as:
Thinking of different & more ways to bond with God
Planning a better & more effective life of workouts
Getting the motivation to study hard & ace exams
Learn different various skills. (athletics training, learn a martial art properly)
Get into a prestigious university
~and the list goes on.
But guess what...
None of these happened, or will probably happen... how great.
Despite my strong desire, my lazy self won in the end.

There have also been many temptations around me, some new ones that pop up daily, & some that have been a burden for as long as i can remember. Sometimes i just don't understand, as i'm so desperate to not fall again for the 32349890324th time, every time, it "just happens" again. I know very well i cannot overcome it myself, i pray about it, ask God for the strength to overcome it, but no. The flesh is too weak.

Sometimes it seems God is allowing us to fall into temptation, we pray & pray for the strength to overcome it, but we never seem to get it. We then end up falling again, & gradually digging a deeper hole.. eventually the hole may become so deep, our flesh cannot take how far down it's fallen.

Pray with conviction! If you're going to ask God for help, but you really don't believe you can do it, you're just kidding yourself. However great this burden may be, God can & will definitely help you through it. Have some faith.

Alert the flesh. From my experiences, when i let myself become extremely tired & screw up my mind by overworking it, that's when i'm most susceptible to temptation. Solution? Get more sleep, rest the mind more, the mind will be more alert, & the flesh will be able to fight temptation with more desire. (Cold showers help haha~)

Have you ever planned something then had a feeling that it was wrong? But your flesh just wanted it, it just felt like an awesome plan at the time, but it still felt a tinsy bit wrong? That's a mini battle between spirit & flesh right there. Learn to surrender the flesh to the spirit. The spirit knows what's right, it's permanent, but the flesh is part of this world & it's pleasures. Really make an effort to listen to the spirit, don't turn your ear way from it.

As I've learnt, the hard way, God's plan for my life is far more superior than my own desires. I may be able to make my own desires happen at times, but in the end, all that happens is that i get hurt & i realize how far I've fallen from God again.

I also have to confess I've been completely addicted to this song since it came out.

Disciple - Draw The Line

"This is where i draw the line 

this is the where the old me dies 

light a match, let it burn, kiss it goodbye, 

giving up what i was 

this is where i draw the line"

It's not too late to surrender yourself to God, to give your life up for a greater purpose. You'll be amazed at how much stronger God can make you, how helpful the Holy Spirit's guidance is, & how much more control you'll have over your flesh.

May your body be alert & willing to the spirit's guidance,
Until next time.
Godbless~