When Everything Falls Apart

It falls, apart, from the very start, it falls apart, 

seems like everything I touch, falls apart, 

everything around me, falls apart, 

when i walk away from you~

Throughout this past week, I have experienced everything around me falling apart.

It seemed to just all happen at once, as if a wall suddenly crumbling.

It all happened because I allowed the absence of one important thing in my life.

God.

The One who holds our very fragile lives in the palm of His hands.

The Provider who has never turned a blind eye to us since we came into existence.

The Protector that has never & never will give us too much strife to handle.

He's the one that keeps all from falling apart.

As soon as I allowed sin to come into my life, it poured in instantly.

As soon as I chose to give my heart to sin, I'd also chosen to reject God.

So things instantly fell apart.

With sin dominant in my life, it was very hard to turn away from it.
"The human heart is the most deceitful of all things, and desperately wicked. Who really knows how bad it is? - Jeremiah 17:9 NLT

It's full of deception.

It makes things that would've seem profound pass with an 'ok'.

It makes things that may make us cringe otherwise feel good at the time.

I had an argument with my mom recently.

Normally, I don't even try. I just listen to all she has to say & let it go out the other ear. I might put in an opinion & see what happens but I always try to make it end as soon as possible. If it doesn't seem to be ending, I just walk away, cause I really hate conflict.

But on that day, that was not the case. I felt like a monster, & I made the most of it. As she talked, I took it in & shot back with words that were intentional to hurt. I wanted to be right & to prove her wrong. It felt good as I let sin overcome me, but at the same time I knew this wasn't right, but still I released the monster inside.

I couldn't gain control of the monster inside me anymore, it just got out of control.

Sin is like a key that unlocks the cage which holds the monster inside us.

Seeking God not only strengthens our lock against sin, but also tames the monster inside us, showing us where it started - as a once innocent creature.

As I think about it more, sin didn't make my life crumble all at once.

Sin in it's deception takes time to destroy, but alot of the time it does so without us noticing. It clouds our mind, & only when it's too late we see that everything has fallen apart.

Right from the start when we let sin into our lives, is when things start falling apart.

So what happens when sin makes our lives fall apart.
When it's all our fault in the beginning in choosing sin over God.
Is all we have left the ashes that will gradually remain?

Is it the end?

Of course it isn't.

When everything falls apart your arms hold me together
When everything falls apart you're the only hope for this heart
When everything falls apart and my strength is gone
I find you mighty and strong, you keep holding on
You keep holding on~

Isn't it nice to know that there is & always will be a God that's willing to hold on, to keep us from completely crumbling?  Even despite us continually choosing sin over Him, He has always chosen to hold onto us.

So even when everything around us has seemed to fall apart, things haven't become hopeless, in fact it's when God is able to show that He is the hope we desperately need.

Godbless~

Everything Falls - Fee

Falls Apart - TFK

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