Awakening?

I need to make sense of this and the only way I can do this is by writing words onto a page.

For so long, I feel I haven’t been able to feel anything.

I seemed to have closed off my channel of feeling  &emotion and become oblivious to the world around me. It helped me get through the hard times, not being consumed by sadness when life got stressful; but it also deprived me of the good times, not being able to fully savor those moments.

Because of this, I have completely lost direction of my life. I don’t know what I want, where I want my life to go, or who I wanted to be.

I’ve been just floating aimlessly with the wind, while the world continues to progress around me.

I’ve been needing something to feel again, something to shake my core, to give me purpose. I’ve been needing an awakening.

Trying to Stay Alive

It's funny, when we're young, all we want is to grow up. But now that I'm there, I reminisce of childhood so very often, longing for those days again.

So much has happened since I last posted, so much that I feel I have lived an entire other life in just the span of a few weeks. I have gone from struggling to catch up to the fast pace of a busy student life, to pushing my life to the limit, giving it no time to pause.

Life has been so so so interesting, I really don't know where to begin.

We Forget We Aren't Invincible

Yay, I made it back just in time before the blog is going to seem 'dead' again. (I hope)
To make it easier on myself, I'll probably be starting with actual life updates while I hopefully get back into the groove of blogging again.

To be honest, I probably shouldn't be here writing procrastinative thoughts, but this is better than actually procrastinating right?

Pokemon, Procrastination, & Productivity

I swear, the amount of blog posts where I have to remind you that my blog isn't dead is building up. I hope this will be the last one.

My holidays have come to an end and I just got through my first week of Uni as I feel obligated to say. But let's not dig into Uni just yet cause who likes talking about Uni anyway?

Le vent se lève!... Il faut tenter de vivre!

Originally, this post was going to be about how I've come to realise that once I've discovered a 'purpose' to live with, it's hard to live without one.

But as I continued on with it, I realised I started listing the negative things about living a life without meaning, and I couldn't carry on, cause hey, who likes negativity right?

Anyways, life has actually been quite good on my part.
Well at least what most people would consider good.
But here I am, doubting the 'goodness' of it...

New Years Resolutions Overrated?

What if new year's resolutions are overrated?
(Happy New Year by the way)

Many of us decide to 'turn our lives around' every 365/6 days, which equates to so many minutes and seconds. Is it cause everyone does it, or is there a deeper reasoning behind it?

What's so significant about a year?
It's only the time taken for the earth to make it's way around the sun once, but we've given it so much more meaning than that.

We celebrate it. We countdown to it. We welcome it exclusively.

It changes lives. 
(at least for a few days for some)

I've personally succumbed to this yearly 'new years resolution' in the past.

But honestly don't you think that 365 days / 8760 hours / 525600 minutes / 31536000 minutes is a bit long to wait to make huge changes in one's life?

Let's keep this going

Let's turn some negative energy into positive energy.

I realized I finished off on a pretty negative note last time.

So all hasn't been bad.
I can be super cliché and say "there's always a silver lining" or "there's always a light at end of the tunnel", but...
Actually, I just did.
Anyways.