I am sorry.
I didn't come out about this earlier.
I'm sure I will have hurt many of you.
I have lied, I have let you down, I have deceived.
No apology can make up for it.
But I am deeply sorry.
I was arrogant.
I didn't know how to stop until it was too late.
Oh how glad I am though, that I am finally willing to open up about my choice.
Even though it's probably far too late.
Those Sundays mornings, going to church just to follow a family tradition.
Feeling so out of place during worship.
Praying with generic Christian phrases.
Trying to inspire others when I was so uninspired.
Lying right to your face.
I was scared.
I was unsure.
Was it possible to change what I was born with?
Was I allowed?
I was stuck in my own pride.
Everything I'd built when I was so convicted would come crashing down.
Everyone would see the truth.
See who I really am.
Mask off.
I was trying to find an easy way out.
To let time provide an escape.
But no, it was all wrong.
And I see that now.
I hope we can still be friends some day.
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